I Can’t Run For A Cause.

by Becki D on October 2, 2010

I attempted another 5k this morning.  It was the Race for Lace, which I knew little to nothing about before I got to the starting line this morning.  Then I discovered that the whole thing had been organized by an individual family whose 21 month old daughter has Cystic Fibrosis.  The Dad got up there and gave the pre-race announcements and tried to tell everyone a little about his family and how thankful he was for all the support they received from the community, and his wife and little Lacey were right there next to him and the more he talked the more choked up he got….in turn, my face got all scrunched up and it took every bit of willpower I had not to bust out in the Ugly Cries.  Seriously.  My Lauren is 21 months old – the same age as Lacey – and all I could think about was my little family and suddenly I didn’t want to be doing this race, I wanted to be snuggling my girls RIGHTNOW.  I’ve never felt so overwhelmingly maternal before, where I was CRAVING my children.  It was weird and instinctual.  It did not make for a good start to a race.

The horn was finally blown and I set off with a lump of tears in my throat and thoughts of my little family all snuggled up at home in my head.  The Race Dad and his little Lacey in her jogging stroller passed me up immediately.  So sweet!  So distracting!  And then I worked my way out of the school parking lot and onto the actual course, where I discovered that almost the entire first mile was uphill.  What the what?!  I don’t know why this was such a surprise to me – the race was held in my home town, which is named for it’s hilly nature.  But because I’m an overweight (but down 3 pounds – 9 more to go!) non-conditioned, undisciplined runner the hills pretty much finished off any willpower that I had left after the emotional start to the race.  My goal was to not walk for at least the first 2 miles, and I only made it to the 1 mile marker before taking a break.  The entire course was extremely hilly and it crushed my weak little runner’s spirit.  I did lots of walk/jog/walk/jogging.  Probably the most walking I’ve done in a race so far.

Oh, and to add insult to the hilly injury, they had Powerade instead of water at the water station!  Blast!!  So I didn’t even get a refreshing recharge at the halfway point.  It just seemed like everything was stacked against me today, and I ended up walking almost the entire last half mile of the race.  There was a baby rattle snake crossing the middle of the road toward the end, and I’m pretty sure I saw him look back over his scaly little body and laugh at me.  Whatever.  I finished in 38:12 or so.  Yeah.  Bad.  Here’s my stats to date:

8/28 – 5k in 39:52

9/18 – 5k in 35:56

10/2 – 5k in 38:12

So that’s my running story.  What have you guys been up to this weekend?



{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

Paula October 2, 2010 at 9:35 pm

You are one amazing young woman and I do admire you.


Becki D October 4, 2010 at 7:52 pm

As always, you are too kind, Paula!


Christina Cantrell October 2, 2010 at 9:58 pm

I could not even go a mile jogging, during the evening, on pretty level ground. Plus I’m way more overweight then you are and I did not just have a second baby. The moral to this story, don’t beat yourself up, you’re going out there and doing it. 🙂


Becki D October 4, 2010 at 7:52 pm

Way more overweight than you, Ms. Size-Two-Pants? I WISH!

Thank you for the encouragement, though. And you know, I am ready for you to join me any time!


Alanna October 2, 2010 at 11:24 pm

Girl you did awesome, and don’t get down on yourself! I am glad I missed it. I couldn’t handle sad stories, hills, crying, and running!! So you did GREAT! I can’t wait until next weekend!!


Becki D October 4, 2010 at 7:53 pm

I know I coulda done way better if I’d had my awesome running buddy with me. I can’t wait for next weekend, either!


Andrea October 3, 2010 at 1:22 am

I think you’re doing really good! I bought a treadmill because it always rains here and I don’t run in the rain and the incline broke (Craigslist buy, that’s what I get) so I never run on an incline. It still takes me like 35 minutes to do three miles. With hills I’d go half as fast for sure!


Becki D October 4, 2010 at 7:55 pm

Thanks, girlie! Even when I was skinny (like, way before having children) I had a really hard time with hills. I think it’s a psychological thing…..I donno. 3 miles in 35 minutes is pretty good on a treadmill! I don’t know why, but my treadmill times are always slower than outside running. So you’d probably be a superstar road runner! 😀


Barbara Palmer October 3, 2010 at 4:42 am

I have to say that even though you think that you are doing terrible look how many people truly think other wise. You have recently made two beautiful children so 9 lbs not so bad. I just started taking fitness as one of my classes and it is truly kicking my butt. The elliptical trainer is not my friend. This is the first time that I have ever been serious about working out to try to help ease my fibromyalgia. It is hard but def. giving me a boost of self confidence. Short story made long…hang in there YOU ARE AWESOME!


Becki D October 4, 2010 at 7:57 pm


You came to my blog!! Yay!!!

Girl, the elliptical will kick your butt all over the place, but it’s also really good for your joints and is a GREAT over-all workout. You’ll be dropping the pounds without even thinking about it! More importantly though, I hope you do get some relief from the fibromyalgia.

Thanks for being such a sweet spirit, now and all those (gulp – almost 20?!) years ago!


Jake October 11, 2010 at 6:18 pm

Ughh. I’m definitely feeling your pain, when it comes to disappointing races this weekend. Sometimes you just have to be glad to be out there getting it done, at all. And when it is for something so worthwhile, like the race you ran, I feel like you can’t really go wrong. 🙂


shelly (cookies and cups) October 12, 2010 at 11:50 am

Those times look good to me! If I can run a 12 minute mile I am happy. Ok, that’s embarrassing!


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